Like an Eagle

There’s a freedom that comes with being alone

I begged for your release and now  I am invisible

I am the brick walls and the sun’s rays

I no longer have a name

I am a whisper. Graffiti. A paraphrase.

I am stripped naked on a busy back alley

Even a school of bees would fail to notice the nectar in my floral scent

 

Then there’s the fear that comes with being alone

I can trip and fall to my demise

With no assurance that your hands will ever catch me again

But then…

What if I flew?

What if I flew?

What if  I flew?

Stretch my arms and legs from out beneath me, head tilted up towards the stars

What if I flew?

I could soar to heights I’ve only dreamed of

Like an eagle…

Green

country-meadowI stare out my window

Watching a colony of people

Frolicking around the meadow

Dancing amongst the bumble bees, with honey in their springs

And air beneath their wings

They banter about, searching

Playfull ferocity

Looking for a pasture that is greener

More perfect than the last they’ve seen (It’s never green enough!)

All to lay their pretty heads

To dream up the most beautiful dream

But nothing is found

No turning back around

And soon, the town grows tired

And, the day turns dire

And everyone falls along the rotten ground…

Paper Train

Time has caught up

Clinging on to my trousers

No more escaping the seconds that have turned into hours

Toss me into your bed of neon painted flowers

I swear by a love that’s creeping into my lungs

Greater than silly hugs & kisses

More than cooking & sharing dirty dishes

Shooting stars and midnight wishes, nothing will compare

I fall for the tiniest of moments: hold my clammy hand, you play with my curly hair…

Love that’s love was love and will forever be the love you know and love, and once it happens, you’ll know cuz it’s love

Promises are extinct

Burn those fairytale pages

Let them go…

La, la, la

We’ll rebel in the freedom of sweet uncertainty and happy accidents

Lives

I’ve lived many lives

Witnessed many lies

I’ve loved them all

***

I will never understand why

hurt people hurt people

and why people love people

that make them cry

***

Tonight is another night

I get to fall asleep

Just to wake up

And fall in love with you again

At sunrise…

This Night

Lets not say goodnight just yet
Damn me, I’ve lost my sight
Of what’s true and desired
Giving up is easy, when you fear the fire

No crying ourselves to sleep tonight
I’d rather walk ten miles in the cold
We lay together in a bed, alone
No longer touching or holding
No longer dreaming on your shoulder

We fuss in an empty room
With nothing to hold on to
Howling and shrieking into the depths
Of madness and foolish plight
Broken and dragging each other down

I don’t wish for this to be our last night
If you tell me it is, I’d rather spend it by your side
Wipe my tears and kiss my lips
Hold me tight, and whisper blurred promises in my ear
We’ll make believe we are flying higher than ever
Through the rest of this night…

Cruising

Sorry, I’ve been away
3 months passed
Never looked back
But I knew I’d miss your face…

Tires burning across lonely concrete
Steering. Clearing my head
Reimagining worlds. Getting lost
In music and written words
Bleeding pens and broken led
Passenger seat full of mindless banter
Confessions and guilty lessons

I daydreamed of you and I
In an aqua paradise, sleeping
Under a flickering street lamp, kissing
In the snow, under a mistletoe
In a crowded cafe, under a turquoise moon
Silly pubescent cartoons
Silly, fucking, cruising
To Led Zeppelin

 

 

Chapter Two: Birthday

Middle of the Road“I write because I adore watching you read the stories I create.”

This summer marked the 1st year anniversary of my blog’s creation, and another birthday to remind myself how old I’m getting. Yes, I still feel the same. Older and wiser… I guess and I suppose… but nonetheless it’s another year of progression and moving forward, so for that… I am a happy man. I feel like every year used to hold a special significance, something that represented what that year stood for… a lesson, a loss, or a great achievement. But this past year… this past year was like a monsoon of mixed extraordinary experiences, and I drove through leaving behind a trail of scattered lost love letters and sticky notes. I think that’s what I’ve grown to appreciate the most about having a blog; it’s one big documented story of crazy life experiences and creative lollipops. All reminding you where you’ve been and where you hope to go.

Looking Back
I created this blog to be my creative lab in space. A work place of many sorts… a glass house where I can lay a few of my fictional and personal thoughts. A place to practice, play and grow. A space where I can be free to unwind, and explore and rediscover myself over and over again. Most importantly, this blog was created to assist in the development of my literary projects.

I wanted this first year to be about “starting from the beginning” … writing what I want, what I feel, what I desire, and what I fear with no organized direction. I wanted to challenge myself to be careless and outspoken. To speak in different voices and from different places inside. I dared myself to not focus on what someone else may think or judge, because I realized a long time ago that’s where the magic stops. As soon as an artist starts to worry about the outside, the connection breaks. This first year was about finding that little boy that fell in love with creating stories and poetry in 3rd grade, that little boy who swore that he was going to write his own book one day because it would be so cool to go to a book store and see a shelf of different books all written by yourself. I think I found him. He’s sitting right here telling me to “hurry up and stop proofreading and editing every line over and over again. Just spit it out already and watch where it all falls.” The practice never stops.

This past year was about playing with the art of story telling, developing my own personal style and flavor, being as honest as can be, and learning to be patient with the process. I believe I succeeded. I recognize a few themes this past year; some bring a smile, a tear… and a few make me cringe. But, that’s the whole point of this process… looking back on those posts that represent a time of silliness or a time of foolish love, and realizing that within those vulnerable written moments lie something special and worth sharing. There is nothing wrong with writing what you feel. Truth breaks all walls down, and you are free to let your creative soul soar. I start to see bits of color and music emerge from the words I lay down, and I get excited to watch it all sing. 

What Happens Next
More writing happens next. This 2nd year will focus on technique and more challenges…. creating and sharing something creative or thoughtful daily. Every moment is another opportunity to continue building your voice, platform, and brand- find out what that is. Most of all, this next phase is about “being” a writer… and documenting my journey in discovering what the hell that really means.

 

Lovers Inferno

In this darkest night
A sadistic world with fiery caves
Banshees scorching the clouds
Reptiles with gargantuan appetites
In this rapturous plight
Our love will conquer everything

Rescued you from a hell
Far from home
Rescued you from a deep red sea
Adrift in fear
Stripped cold
Stranded alone
But, we shalt not drown

I feel the heat rise underneath
As we escape
Burning bridges, and slices of death
An inferno flaming beneath
Searing bones chest deep
Our magic will wake the dead
An eruption from a vicious sleep

Hold me tight
Squeeze me till my last breath
Uplifts you out of this evil pit
Dive into my tiger’s eye
Kiss me hard for this last time
Hard till you taste my soul
Imprison me within your heart
Until we reunite on the other side

inferno